Hate~I You don't know how close I have come To ending it all right here I cannot even begin to say how much pain I feel today All the things you have done And you want to feign ignorance I hate you so much I can feel it under my skin tearing me apart before my eyes You make me so sick, the way you lie and say you love me But you know they always say actions are louder than words And every time I feel the sting from the knife in my back I know it's from you I want to make you feel what I feel	Hate~II I hate feeling this way I hate the way I change I used to know myself and now it feels like something else I look in the mirror I look at the eyes that stare back at me and I think that I dont know who you are and why you are here or maybe I just dont want to I hate feeling like this because I cant even feel what its like to be alive anymore every day just goes by too fast too many unsaid words and mistakes are made not enough love for the ones I thought I cared for and too much anger and hate to the ones that did nothing wrong I want to say im sorry for what I did but I cant something wont let me and I wont lie I dont know if you still believe in me anymore because I have my doubts I hate hating the way I do but I dont know what else to do maybe I should go away because I really just hate myself	The Dark Corner In a dark corner I once lay Afraid, waiting for night... to become day Deep deep inside where no one else can be I found my place to hide inside... of me No one can ever be here and where I am none will find When they "see" me it's not real But I got scared I didn't know what to do Before I knew it I was gone Run away, to some other place Night turned to day In the corner I still lay when they came... I was gone Where I am... none will find...
Rain The falling rain a dreary day sky is gray blocks all the light swiftly the day turns to night... The heart is weakened the body tired On a day like this you are not alive breathing...moving eating...thinking only in minimal necessity the inner person that makes YOU ALIVE might not survive on a day like this.. Softly, quietly it calls to you beckons to you with dreamy enticement Once you take it... embrace it... Fall into an oblivion of slumber Its the only way to take it in stride to SURVIVE To deprive yourself of it means losing yourself become an empty shell To greedily indulge in it could be a sin caring only for yourself You've forgotten everyone else find yourself alone and cold.. The cold rain unceasingly attacks Now is the time.. take your chance...	Uncertainty There is a feeling I get when I look ahead Knowing but yet not What will become of one I have sought She always knew What the master plan was But now she knows That it is not all in stone The life she has may be history read by some scholar of another time But perhaps the past to be is still negotiable With every word.. movement.. look it changes Never be taken by the knowledge you've gained If you have considered how you must use it It all becomes useless... A near forgotten one of long ago Still pulls at my heart.. and lets me know That with all definite things There may be an uncertainty hidden in the wings	You'll See My life remains a riddle puzzled with simplicity comforted with tears The time has come I'm going to bring out all these things When the sun goes down You'll See Me staring out the window Praying for this day to end When the time comes I want to be there To give up all these things Take away the pain, uneasiness sorrow, despair, disillusion I will be happy, joyful, content, at peace You'll See